Deal with it

You know, feeling sad can really drive one's work ethics up. You wouldn't even believe how much I've been up to today at the office,and I have to say I haven't really felt this productive since my first day at the job. Sorrow can really cheer a guy up as it happens.

Furthermore, I've done a pretty good job in cleaning my thoughts up, with a lot of help from my co-worker and best friend in the whole world Ziena. I realise now I'm not even angry at my ex-boyfriend, even though I thought I would be very much. Right now, I just feel as if all of this should have never happened. I know I can miss him, but I shouldn't. I know I still love him, but I know it's just no use whatsoever.

It's just... I know I will always love him, and I will always consider him to be the #1 love in my life, but apparantly it just doesn't work out, so what can I do? I know I cannot make my life miserable forever, so I just need to move on, no matter how difficult it may seem right now. We're just through, and that's the way it is, and I just need to find a way to deal with that.