An addiction to remember

As you know I've tried quitting smoking last week, and then again this week. It didn't work out.... I desperately try to find the motivation to actually go through with it, but I just can't find it. I know there are a thousand reasons to quit smoking, but I just can't seem to plant them in my head firmly enough to actually follow them and stop.

There's this guy I really like who really wants me to quit smoking, but not even because of this I can get myself to follow through. He's angry with me now for not quitting, but then again, is there any way you can quit for someone else? No matter how much you like a person, the only good reason to stop smoking is because you want it for yourself. It doesn't matter if someone else is pleased by you quitting, it just doesn't hold up to reasons you can actually live up to.

I still feel it's stupid to smoke, and I still want to quit, but I do really need to find my own motivation, otherwise it's just useless.