Movies and meat

Hm, that didn't go over very well... Remind me not to watch any sort of romantic comedy for at least three months after a painfull breakover, with a possibility of topping up. Here's the shitty thing: I love watching romantic comedies, as any selfrespecting gay guy should, but at times like these they usually make me cry and feel all sorry for myself. The most shitty thing is that this is something I know up front, so it has this kind of masochist thing in it, since it's my own choice to watch these movies like all the time.

Tonight was of course no exception, so now I'm smoking like a chimney and drinking my sorrow away (but not to worry, it's just ice tea). Then again, what else is there to do? Basically every movie or television series has some sort of romantic attachment involved, so there's really no escaping it. I guess I'm just one of those selfish people who want the whole world to feel miserable when I'm feeling miserable. For that very same reason, I refuse to look into any of the archives of this blog, knowing all to well that for this past 7 months basically everything I wrote had at least partially to do with Emiel. I know there's this very convenient button to erase it all, but I'm afraid there might come a day when I really want to read it all back, so I leave it just right there.

The stupidist thing I've been doing after the break-up? I started eating meat again after 14 years of being a vegetarian. Now how crazy is that? Man, I'm swearing you, it feels like some kind of drugs, and I've gone a little overboard with it, eating meat all the time now. Still, of course it's a lot less unhealthy than doing actual drugs, but the fact remains that I kinda swore to myself to stay a vegetarian for the rest of my life. The most silly thing is, that Emiel really wanted me to start eating meat, because it would be so much easier when we went out to dinner and stuff, and look, here I am just one month after he left me, stuffing myself with animals.

Back to how we got to this subject: no more romantic comedies for me. Must make a note of that on my mental checklist!