Mood swings

You know how you can have really big mood swings depending on wether you're alone or with company? Well that's I've been having this evening. Come to think of it, that's what I've been having right now as we speak.

This whole evening has been great. Sjeed came over to watch the Confessions Tour DVD, which makes sense seeing that he came along to the september 3 show in the Amsterdam ArenA. We had a good time watching the DVD and everything went just fine.

Now that he's left like 10 minutes ago, I'm suddenly in a whole different mood, namely a mood where I'm feeling quite miserable, all because (you may have guessed it) Emiel. I realised tonight that in just a week from now, it's his birthday, and I've been looking forward to celebrating it with him for months, and now I'm not able to do that. It's just a shitty thing, I know, and I also know that my regular readers will probably get sick of me writing about this, but I just really cannot help myself.

Maybe I should just ignore the fact that we've ever been together? that's the new thing I'll try...