Embarrasment update

Well, haven't seen him, so I guess I delayed that embarassment! Stupid to think of course, cause I will be in that weird situation one of these days anyway, but still, it's always a good thing to have a couple of days of 'normal' working (whatever that means) before it's time to be the silly one.

I went home after work pretty early, about 4-ish, cause I was kinda fed up with it, but now the problem is I don't have anything to do tonight and feel terribly bored, but because of it being a Monday I cannot go out or anything, because it's just plain stupid to be doing that on a Monday. So now I'm watching sitcom's on the couch and actually feel quite happy about it, even though I would much rather have some people coming over for a drink. Maybe this is a good day to go to bed early and get a good night sleep so that I'm nice and fresh tomorrow morning.

Still haven't heard anything from my ex-boyfriend, which I still suppose is a good thing. When we got into this big final fight last week (even though are relationship was over for about two weeks at the time), I wasn't quite sure if I wanted him to call me or if I wanted the opposite. I guess I'm still not completely sure, but I do think it's for the better this way. At least I'm pretty easy nowadays in not calling him, which I think is a big step up from my former relationship with R., who I wanted to call every second of the day. Is this maturity? After all, I am 26 haha!

Anyway, I thought I would be feeling pretty lousy, and even though I'm not completely happy because of my boring evening, I have to admit it has nothing to do with E., so maybe I am getting over him easier than I thought! If there is still anything to get over, that is. I've been making a list of things not going very well in our past relationship, and to my big shock it was quite a long list. Of course, there were also a lot of good things going on, but looking back on it, I guess it just wasn't the perfect relationship I made it up to be in my head. I hate to say it, but maybe we just didn't fit well, and it was time to move on. I'm still not sure, but I do know I'm feeling a lot better than I did a week ago.