Christmas blues

I'm a bit sad today, and there's not really a reason to it. I guess it's just because it's been a busy day at work and I'm so tired right now. I have a job interview tomorrow and I'm preparing for it, but in the end the thing I would most like to do right now is just go to bed.

It doesn't help the Christmas is coming upm in just a few days. It's not like I really care anymore, as I wrote a couple of days ago, but still it's a bit sad to realise that all my Christmas plans have been sort of thrown to pieces after E. broke up with me. We were supposed to go to Geldrop on Christmas Eve, to go to chrurch (which is not something I usually do, but I'm one of those hypocrites who like doing so at Christmas time), go visit my parents on Christmas Day, and his parents on Boxing Day.

Of course, none of that will happen now, and even though I'm not supposed to care, I do care. I'm going to spend two days at my parents house now, which is by all means fine, but it does mean yet another Christmas of being alone. It's become somewhat of a habit and I was so thrilled about being able to break it this year, but no such luck I guess. To tell you the truth, Christmas for me could just as well go by without a trace.